XOXO-EMMM: Worst day ever.

I've typed this post atleast 30 times and have never been able to post it. This isn't one of my usual posts. But it's weighing very heavy on my heart right now.

I've had a pretty easy life. My parents have given me everything in their power that they can. I've never really suffered. Until January 15, 2015. That day completely changed my life.

Shanice was a girl that everyone considered their best friend. She was the kind of person that smiled at everybody and never knew a stranger. She was the kind of person that could make a huge impact on a lot of people. And that's exactly what she did. January 15th was a snow day from school. {basically the best school days} But it wasn't a good day at all. James and I were about to baby sit these kids that we've done a thousand times, and then I got the call. James' mom was the one who told me and the tears were instant. I couldn't breathe and I couldn't speak. But I had to tell James. She was his best friend too. He loved her like family and telling him was the hardest part. I've probably cried a million tears, but that's not even comparable to all the tears shed for her. I will never forget that day. That was the day that changed my whole perspective on life and showed me how grateful I really am for everyone around me.

As the start of a new year was a really exciting time, the 15th rolled around with it. Now it's tomorrow and I feel like the pain is going to be all too real again. I've spent 364 days missing her. If tears could bring you back, you'd be here a million times over. But you're the best guardian angel anyone could ask for. I'm lucky to know you're always watching over me and guiding me in the right direction. Although I know tomorrow is going to be a very hard day, I know you'll be here with your arms around us. It's almost comforting.

If I could ask y'all to say a few prayers for my school, her family, and everyone affecting by her loss, it would be greatly appreciated.